stagnant water

There has to be a line somewhere
Between giving myself time and
Buzzing stagnant water
Temporary pools that teem and dry and fill
It hasn't been that long
It hasn't been that long

Rest Rest Rest again and forget again
Write the same thing again and forget again
Have the same conversations with nobody and everybody
All the you's and pointed fingers and extra-interactional forgiving
It hasn't been that long
It hasn't been that long

And you can't control how others treat you
By standing on your tip toes and you know this
But you've been standing like that for so long
Others have made homes under your arches
It hasn't been that long
It hasn't been that long

you don't want to be a monster so you swallow your hurt
breathe in through your nose when you can and exhale
slowly (but quietly, so as not to signal your distress)
(your distress stings and criticises)
It hasn't been that long
It hasn't been that long